Stupid People

If someone talks to me like I am stupid, well my attitude can get pretty bad. This woman at work, who by the way is a knob, is training me on how to do her job. She is going on vacation and I get the pleasure of covering her work. I have noticed that she is on the phone for most of the day. Thus she gets very little work done. Now these are business phone calls, I listen to them all since we are in cubicles. Hello anyone seen Office Space?? I swear I may go postal soon. She repeats herself, she talks in this tone to everyone, like you are retarded and she is uses the same phrases over and over to nauseum. "I'm just curious", "I have a question", "FYI", "Heads Up", "Correct", "Zip it". Yes I may kill her soon. I have a low tolerance for stupid annoying people at the best of times, but when this person is training me? Well lets just say she got 'the tone' a few times this week! Then she keeps checking over my work, fine no problem, but she is pointing out formatting to me. Not like my formatting is wrong but she would prefer something on the next line or she wanted me to fiddle withe the letterhead template to move the logo. None of this matters since the letter we send out is 3 lines long and the client chucks it. What matters is the terms and conditions so I make sure they look good. Really I told her never mind about the letterhead as I was not going to fix it. Then she wants me to scan a certain way, it's in there, it's going in the right direction, drop it. She is dumb and it takes several explanations for her to absorb anything. She will ask opinion on something and I'll tell her, fine. But then she asks me 5 more times and still never makes a decision. Really I can see escaping this job in a few years to get away from her. Thank God I don't normally work with her. Maybe she will get the flesh eating disease and not come back.

I had a lovely discussion with my mom today. I truly hate my family, hate how I was raised and wish my father would die quickly. My mom can't get her car fixed because asshole tells her who she can go to and this guy is busy. So her car is not reliable enough to drive until she gets it fixed so she is stuck at home. I asked her if this was normal. She said that she didn't have a problem with it, I told her that's because she has been so verbally abused that she has no idea what is normal. I told her I don't want to hear about anything, not even little things. I also told her that I have resorted to telling people when they ask about my family that it is just my mom and me. I cannot get into any lengthy discussions about my stupid sisters or why I don't talk to my dad. No one's business and as soon as they find out that you are not talking about certain people in your family they want to know why. So yes due to the major dysfunction I have resorted to creating lies to keep my sanity. Sad, she doesn't get it, her mind has been permanently altered by asshole. I can't even feel that bad all the time because she could have left him before she had kids and avoided this hell life. You know you choose it and if you think not being able to get your car fixed when you want is normal, then great.

I can't change others, that's why I don't talk to my sisters. I really hate people that make the same tragic mistakes time and time again and then ask "why do these things always happen to me?" Well because life is what you make it. If you like drama then you will create it. We all know what the right decisions are, if you make the wrong one then you must enjoy the repercussions. I don't want to hear about continually because those are your choices, I can give advice, but people don't listen I give up. Sometimes life can be very frustrating for me. I care a lot about people. But after the conversation today, I feel like well you are obviously happy with how things are, so enjoy. I have built my life to suit me. T. and I are happy with our goals and we have discussed a great many things. Careers, houses, where to live, children, religion, death, abuse, etc. Heck we even know to pull the plug on each other if we are comatose and vegetables.

This weekend I work Thursday night and then Saturday at the gay Bay. I am going for a massage on Saturday. I am going to a comedy club on Friday night and I am going to visit a friend on Saturday night. Sunday it'll be a veg day and Sunday T. and I may go to the zoo. All in all I hope to cuddle with Chili and Oreo lots and enjoy Monday off with T.

Hopefully the next 2 days whiz by and the stupid person disappears on her vacation.